Lyrics

Not Lost

We’re not lost
We just can’t be found
Avoid radio contact
Never forget
We are here
And this is now

We’re holding hands
As we’re listening
To the magical sound waves
Flowing within
We are here
And this is now

Careful with these moments
They’re made of glass
And they are easily shattered
By the sound of the masses

Erase your trace
Don’t risk our very own
Secret hiding place
Never forget
We are here
And this is now

Take one minute
Or think in seconds if you will
It’s our tiny vacation
And I want you to stay
We are here
And this is now

Careful with these moments
They’re made of glass
And they are easily shattered
By the sound of the masses

We’re not lost
We just can’t be found

Deer in Headlights

Cling cling cling I am clinging
To your body parts
The words on your lips
Watching every move you make

Which is ok coz you’re a dancer
You are no singer or gigolo
Alarm bells are sounding
I’m about to scare you off

I have to withdraw some of me
My body language and language
I’m all over the place
So unsubtle, right in your face

Carved out a new plan
Coz I want you I want you
To stay
We’ve just begun

I’ll be your prey
You have to hunt
Sharpen your arrows
And aim for my heart

My hooves won’t run
Read the fear in my eyes
Frozen
I’ll play the deer in headlights
Proudly parade
What you’ve just captured
Frozen, frozen
I’ll play the deer in headlights

Feel feel feel I am feeling
Something beautiful
Has it turned into a battle
Don’t wanna be a soldier

Cause I am a deer my blood is warm
Your touch so careful yet so very strong
Wipe the angst from my eyes
These are the good days

Carved out a new plan
Coz I want you I want you
To stay
We’ve just begun

I’ll be your prey
You have to hunt
Sharpen your arrows
And aim for my heart

My hooves won’t run
Read the fear in my eyes
Frozen
I’ll play the deer in headlights
Proudly parade
What you’ve just captured
Frozen, frozen
I’ll play the deer in headlights

I am the deer in headlights

Roots

What I want from you
Is for you to step aside
Vanish forever
Never come back

Erase the things
You’ve said and done
Dig out your roots
I won’t grow along

What I want from you
Is for you to pull back what’s left
Replant or crumble
I really shouldn’t know

Where you will go
Where you belong

You need to leave me, leave me
Cause I can’t cut you down
You need to leave me, leave me
Cause I can’t cut you down
You need to leave me
Cause I can’t cut you down
Leave me, leave me

What I want from me
Is to agree with the truth
You’ve grown and seem stuck
But I’ll no longer feed your roots

You know I do have an axe
I should really try to swing it
But the metal is so heavy
And I am not that strong
I really shouldn’t know

Where you will go
Where you belong

You need to leave me, leave me
Cause I can’t cut you down
You need to leave me, leave me
Cause I can’t cut you down
You need to leave me
Cause I can’t cut you down
Leave me, leave me

What I want from you
Is to reset your self
Forget persistence
It’s a curse we’ve taken on
What I want from me
Is to allow the void you’ll leave behind
Dig out your roots
I won’t grow along

Mainstream Lover

I hate to break it to you
You are nothing but a mainstream lover
I hate to break it to you
Mainstream lover

I hate to break it to you
But you are nothing but a mainstream lover
With an average touch
Just that level of love

It starts from the heart and sets off the touch
Coz the love is too much
When two become one all the clocks in the world will stop
Coz the love is too much

I hate to break it to you
But what I want is an untamed lover
I hate to break it to you
Mainstream lover

Let me break it down for you
Be more than a mainstream lover
Start perfecting the art
Of something as simple as love

It starts from the heart and it sets off the touch
Coz the love is too much
When two become one all the clocks in the world will stop
Coz the love is too much

Something as simple as love
Something as simple as love
Here we go now

I hate to break it to you
You are nothing but a mainstream lover
Start perfecting the art
Of something as simple as love

It starts from the heart and it sets off the touch
Coz the love is too much
When two become one all the clocks in the world will stop
Coz the love is too much

Something as simple as love
Something as simple as love
Here we go now

Marathon

Truly sorry
I dug a hole
You tripped and you fell
Saw the bottom of the well

You looked
Up to the edge
Knew how to move ahead
Facing the climb hands on

And I ran a marathon
I ran that damn marathon

You stood still
With your eyes wide open
You mended the hole
And you came back strong

The cuts and bruises
Were troubling things
But you solved it all
Hands on

And I ran a marathon
I ran that damn marathon

Eyes forward
Tears have disappeared
Accelerate, accelerate
And don’t look back
Eyes forward
Tears have disappeared
Accelerate, accelerate
And don’t look back

My miles tired my legs

And I ran a marathon
I ran that damn marathon

Try Again

How
How we can sing
The same songs all over again
Yet another love has vanished

I tried to be different
But I did something wrong
Oh how I miss you

Possess me
Caress me
Kiss me again
I’ll be your woman
Please be my man
Embrace me
Stay with me
Oh I’m crumbling dear man
I’m not sure who did this
But please
Let’s try again

How come you don’t see it
I thought we’d built our own kingdom
Don’t you know
That I am broken
And that I miss you so

Long letters and metaphors
Aren’t cutting it I know
You are deaf, distant and stubborn

But I hope
You didn’t run
Out of our love

Possess me
Caress me
Kiss me again
I’ll be your woman
Please be my man
Embrace me
Stay with me
Oh I’m crumbling dear man
I’m not sure who did this
But please
Let’s try again

But please
Give us a chance

Lovemakers Heartbreakers

The one thing we share
Is a talent for caring
And every once in a while
We lose track and care for what’s right there

We are lovely people
Maybe semi-lovely lovers
I wish we would deliver
But we don’t stick around

So why do lovemakers become heartbreakers
Oh why do lovemakers always become heartbreakers

We join up for talks
Never seem to judge
Encourage every bit of hope for the new thing
Everyone has a shot at being something

The track record is set
We make love in our beds
And someday we might break

So why do lovemakers become heartbreakers
Oh why do lovemakers always become heartbreakers

We know the heat
Our heart skips beats

So why do lovemakers become heartbreakers
Oh why do lovemakers always become heartbreakers

Fear Of The End

I fear it won’t end well

I can’t be the memory
Of your worst feelings
I can’t be the reason
For what felt like treason

I don’t mean for us
To ruin other people’s faith in love
Want to remember our first touch
As really having been ours

I fear it won’t end well

I’ll be the memory
Of your worst feelings
Oh I’ll even be the enemy
For whoever needs me to be

I don’t mean for us
To ruin other people’s faith in love
Want to remember our first touch
As really having been ours

I fear it won’t end well

Every crisis I have to avert
I try my best to have us be perfect
I just started my collection
Of hours and days
That become months and years
Overshadowing all the fears

I can’t be the memory
Of your worst feelings

I don’t mean for us
To ruin other people’s faith in love

Muse

Muse
You’re a shape shifter
Hold still
Don’t diffuse

Muse
Be visible
Don’t you lie dormant
And snooze

Muse
You are gorgeous
When you finally
Appear

Muse
Chant a chorus
Sing to our senses
And fears

It’s about a million wasted minutes
Before you awake
Impatiently we’re waiting
For a sign to embrace

Muse
Give us something
Plant seeds
In our brains

Horizons
Are never wide enough
We’re living
Within a frame

It’s about a million wasted minutes
Before you awake
Impatiently we’re waiting
For a sign to embrace

Muse
Come to our rescue
People
Can be cruel

Animals
Are eaten
And muses
They are beaten

It’s about a million wasted minutes
Before you awake
Impatiently we’re waiting
For a sign to embrace

Muse
Come to our rescue

Bones

Bones break all the time
One snap and you won’t be fine
It’s the consequence
Of you not being nice

Stab stab everyone’s dead
Turn your head and miss the brick wall
You’re running into

How soon will it heal
How soon will it heal

Salt waves stream down your face
Lukewarm but in secret
Skin can hide
What’s going on inside

Stab stab everyone’s dead
Turn your head and miss the brick wall
You’re running into

How soon will it heal
How soon will it heal

Splitting pain reaches the brain
One more second before the notion
Your bones are broken
Splitting pain reaches the brain
One more second before the notion
Your bones are broken
Your bones are broken
Your bones are broken

Splitting pain

Bones break all the time
Bones break all the time

How soon will it heal
How soon will it heal

Your bones are broken
Your bones are broken
Your bones are broken

Splitting pain

Fall

Smashed to pieces
Scattered upon the sight
I saw it
The end of your life

Hopes and dreams
Never mind
They’re trivia
When you die

I saw you fall
From a very high cliff
It was impossible
You didn’t survive at all
What I also saw
Was the look on your face
You looked peaceful
And not worried at all

I saw you fall

Impact ahead
It was certainly no secret
Within seconds
Only death

What an attraction
Of what you were soon to be
All I wanted was to fall
Instead

I saw you fall
From a very high cliff
It was impossible
You didn’t survive at all
What I also saw
Was the look on your face
You looked peaceful
And not worried at all
As if you knew
And understood
There was nothing left to do
But fall
I saw you fall
From a very high cliff
You looked peaceful
And not worried at all

I saw you fall

That’s why we may keep on dreaming

Light from distant stars
Romances the nights
Far away galaxies
Illuminate our lives

The yellow light
Travels so fast
But to reach our eyes takes much longer
Than a human life lasts

That’s why we may keep on dreaming
You can’t always understand what you see
What is actually of importance
In this mysterious galaxy

Let’s look up to the sky
We’re all magicians tonight
It’s been maybe millions of years
Since the objects appeared

That’s why we may keep on dreaming
You can’t always understand what you see
What is actually of importance
In this mysterious galaxy

A comet rushes by
While you’re staring at the sky
It’s mostly frozen water
Dust hits the atmosphere
You wish your love was here
Coz you just saw a falling star

That’s why we may keep on dreaming
You can’t always understand what you see
Your eyes read a different story
Truth contradicts reality

That’s why we may keep on dreaming
You can’t always understand what you see
What is actually of importance
In this mysterious galaxy

Karma

Out at sea (Beneath the Radar)

Lyrics: Ai Ming Oei. Music: Ai Ming Oei. Produced by Sander van Dijck and Frans Verburg.

I was out at sea
Been traveling beneath the radar
So no one could see
Me beneath the radar
All those terrible secrets
Were traveling beneath the radar
Didn’t change a thing
Beneath the radar

What I have done
Could cause something
Louder than tornados
Assuming you’d care
I’d be targeted with all sorts of stares

And you all despise that I smile
That I seem to live after all
That I haven’t just collapsed
But am standing up straight, ignoring the past

I was out at sea
Been traveling beneath the radar
It was silence and me
Beneath the radar
We will never be free
Only beneath the radar
Didn’t change a thing
Beneath the radar

I have not been stabbed
By the days that already passed
Not yet licking my wounds
Even if we assumed
That would’ve been a normal thing to do

I guess I’m a bit sedated
But you should know that
I’ve waited and waited
While I was out at

I was out at sea
Been traveling beneath the radar
It was silence and me
Beneath the radar
We will never be free
Only beneath the radar
Didn’t change a thing
Beneath the radar

I have not been crushed
By the weight you’ve decided it should weigh
Seem to refuse to act out
A part in your moralistic play

So I guess I might seem sedated
But you should know that I’ve waited and waited
While I was out at out

I was out at sea
Been traveling beneath the radar
So no one could see me
Beneath the radar

Master of the Coup

Lyrics: Ai Ming Oei. Music: Ai Ming Oei. Produced by Sander van Dijck and Frans Verburg

Master of the coup
You’re the devil in the book
You beat all the other common criminals
You’re nothing like the originals

Can’t believe you made to disappear
Murdered, tortured
And so you cleared
The homes of entire families

You’ve evolved in fantastic ways
Operations the size of entire countries
Lasting for innumerable days
Master of the coup

Master of the coup
You’re the devil in the book
You beat all the other common criminals
You’re nothing like the originals

You’ve evolved in fantastic ways
Operations the size of entire countries
Lasting for innumerable days
Master of the coup

Through books and movies
We imagine the sight of these countries
Your disciples
Pushing people into graves

Through books and movies
We imagine the sight of these countries
People fleeing
The countries you’ve claimed

You’ve evolved in fantastic ways
Operations the size of entire countries
Lasting for innumerable days
Master
You’ve evolved in fantastic ways
Operations the size of entire countries
Lasting for innumerable years
Master of the coup

Karma

Lyrics: Ai Ming Oei. Music: Ai Ming Oei. Produced by Sander van Dijck and Frans Verburg

I don’t do lust
So if you must
You’re a beast for luring me in
And now leaving me with
nothing
But having sinned

I don’t do trust
Apparently
So if you must
Please understand my excuse
I was tricked into a connection
And forgot what I had to lose

Karma we have a problem
Or does fate take me a long way
Reason is lost
I deserve nothing but
A demeaning kick in the
Heart

I don’t do rust
At least
That’s what I thought
But after years and years of
Shifting gears
I think I’m actually finally stuck

Karma we have a problem
Or does fate take me a long way
Reason is lost
I deserve nothing but
A demeaning kick in the
Heart

A fanatic silent treatment
Or a really really false start
No more than a hundred thoughts
Only unfair agreements
Only a couple more loves
A dozen painful break-ups
A sneaky mistress
Really hot and relentless

Karma we have a problem
Or does fate take me a long way
Reason is lost
I deserve nothing but
A demeaning kick in the
Heart

Toy

Lyrics: Ai Ming Oei. Music: Ai Ming Oei, Sander van Dijck and Frans Verburg. Produced by Sander van Dijck and Frans Verburg

I’m a toy
Turn me on turn me off
I’ll change the batteries myself
Coz I’ll keep going

I am tiny
Small bits could easily break off
And even though I’m missing parts
I’ll keep going

I know you
I have learned that you play rough
You turn me on and turn me off
At awkward moments

I feel you
should move away from this stuff
coz it’s beating up my heart
almost game ove

Please consider me
I’m not unbreakable
only I can save me
But I’ve grown to love you already
Please consider me
I’m not unbreakable

It’s pretty dark
In this box in which I’m locked
I am wondering if you’re playing
With another human being

Oh the others
Tell me not to make up
All of your thoughts, I can’t know, I can’t know
It’s hard not knowing

Please consider me
I’m not unbreakable
only I can save me
But I’ve grown to love you already
Please consider me
I’m not unbreakable

I’m fighting hard not to give
I’m fighting hard not to receive
Too eagerly

I’m a toy ready to play
Turn me on don’t turn me off
It’s hard to be in love
For you, but not for me

Please consider me
I’m not unbreakable
only I can save me
But I’ve grown to love you already
Please consider me
I’m not unbreakable

Make Way

Lyrics: Ai Ming Oei. Music: Ai Ming Oei and Sander van Dijck Produced by Sander van Dijck and Frans Verburg

A bridge afraid of heights so ready to come down
Shock therapy has failed to help him master all of his aching

Make way make way
I’m pushing out the one over-welcoming his stay
Make way make way
This is where we part ways

Holding on to a rope that’s unraveling till there’s just one thread left
If that one breaks who will take the blame

Make way make way
I’m pushing out the one over-welcoming his stay
Make way make way
This is where we part ways

You better leave these grounds

Holding on to a rope that’s unraveling till there’s just one thread left
If that one breaks who will take the blame

Make way make way
I’m pushing out the one over-welcoming his stay
Make way make way
This is where we part ways

You better leave these grounds

25 to Life

Lyrics: Ai Ming Oei. Music: Ai Ming Oei and Sander van Dijck. Produced by Sander van Dijck and Frans Verburg

I’ve been busy keeping the lid on
Cutting reality in halves
Comparing myself
to the scumbags
That inspired so many songs

Several years down the drain
As would be my good name
If you all knew, if you all knew
My mouth is locked and my tong is chained

Haunted by a blurry night
Forced to forget
I’m serving a life sentence I’m now 25 to life

I’ve been busy figuring out whether
Your words were you
You work your talent on crowds
The charming smiles got to me too

Haunted by a blurry night
Forced to forget
I’m serving a life sentence I’m now 25 to life

And I didn’t know it would get worse
After 4 or 5 days
So many lines crossing it’s getting worse, much worse
I swallowed the knot and it’s trying to get out through my
Tears or my mouth

Whatever the outcome is, it’s gonna hurt
Whatever the great plan is, I hope it’s worth it
Whatever the outcome is, it’s gonna hurt
Whatever

Haunted by a blurry night
Forced to forget
I’m serving a life sentence I’m now 25 to life
Haunted by a blurry night
Forced to forget
I’m serving a life sentence I’m now 25 to life

Vortex

Lyrics: Ai Ming Oei. Music: Ai Ming Oei. Produced by Sander van Dijck and Frans Verburg

I’m reminiscing
‘bout all those things that went missing
The kitchen knife, all sorts of warranties
Pieces of clothing, it’s a murder mystery

An endless hole no space no time
It’s tempting to know about coz
Once you’re in
You’re in the great big nothing

I put up an ad and it says

Vortex for sale
I’ll cut you a nice deal
Vortex for sale
It needs to go
Coz of who might jump in

I drank alcohol
And in my buzz let go
Of a few brain cells
Leaving me in vertigo

Balancing on the edge
Drawn to fall backwards
Just a story to be told
“I’m the girl who was swallowed whole
I am no longer among you all”

Vortex for sale
I’ll cut you a nice deal
Vortex for sale
It needs to go
Coz of who might jump in

Violent, dangerous, rotating column of air
My abductor to this peaceful nowhere

It needs to go Coz of who might jump in

Vortex for sale
I’ll cut you a nice deal
Vortex for sale
It needs to go
Coz I might jump in

Simple Words and Touches

Lyrics: Ai Ming Oei. Music: Ai Ming Oei. Produced by Sander van Dijck

Is this what you do
Simple words and touches

Can’t believe you’ve got me
I’m not an easy

Catch

I’m

Gasping

For you

Is this what you do

Is this what you do
Simple words and touches
Leaving little virgin girls behind

I’m not an easy

Catch

I’m

Gasping

For you

Is this what you do
Simple words and touches

Is this what you do

Move

Lyrics: Ai Ming Oei. Music: Ai Ming Oei. Produced by Sander van Dijck

Move move move, move out of your plane wreckage,
Don’t freeze to say goodbye
See it has no interest
In keeping you alive

With its inflammable fluids,
Dripping from its veins
See it won’t hesitate to vaporize your face

Move Move Move away
You’ll disappear if you hesitate
And stop stop blaming fate
Has it told you to stay

Move move move, move out of your glass globe
All that snow it can’t be good
Cold and spiritless
It might appear to be comfortable
To you

Move Move Move away
You’ll disappear if you hesitate
And stop stop blaming fate
Has it told you to stay

Moss

Lyrics: Ai Ming Oei. Music: Ai Ming Oei. Produced by Sander van Dijck and Frans Verburg

The walls of our house
Are made out of brick
Their cement seams
Seem greenish and thick

Over time moss had its way
And that’s what it feels like today

The roof over our heads
It might as well be red
So sturdy and protective
I’m pretty sure that today
I am its captive

Over time moss had its way
And that’s what it feels like today

Silhouettes of unidentifiable men
Winking and calling
Things I don’t understand
I’m not sure it’s a longing
For them

The chimney is breathing out
Hot room temperature air
I’m sure that it’s needed someplace somewhere
But now it’s heading nowhere

Over time moss had its way
And that’s what it feels like today

Last Couple of Years

Lyrics: Ai Ming Oei. Music: Ai Ming Oei. Produced by Sander van Dijck and Frans Verburg

Sweet sweet sweet last couple of years
It took a while but now they’re finally here
Sweet sweet sweet last couple of years
My cheeks are wet
And here they finally are the tears

I am done protecting you my last couple of years
I don’t need to annunciate these words this clear
We understand it’s over and I would much rather mourn
And be in tears
Than to protect you my last couple of years

We’re not crying out of hope
We are crying cause we know
That these last couple of years are ending
In an endless stream of tears

Oh my sweet last couple of years
I am so sorry that you scared me in the end
That i am ill
That i can’t participate in the pretty future years we would have had

Sweet sweet last couple of years
It took a while
But now they’re finally here
I am missing you my last couple of years
And here they are the tears